
Just read a
great little blog post on CJane.
Reminded me of the other night....
Adam and I had just put the kids to bed (the older two, anyway). They fought and kicked and screamed all the way to bed ... then fell asleep in 2.1 seconds because they had reached the point of exhaustion. That is what summer is for, right? Play until you can't play anymore! Anyways, I'd just changed a particularly poopy newborn diaper and was getting up off the floor (yes we change diapers on the floor at our house ... because we are all sorts of ghetto around here ...) and looked right at Adam, who had fallen into an exhausted heap on the couch. I said with a glimmer in my eyes "You do know that we have another baby coming to our family someday, right?" His look was incredulous. "You mean you actually want
more children?!" (Which, methinks, was akin to saying "You actually think you can
handle more children?!") I laughed and said, "I didn't say I
wanted more children, I said that we are going to have more. Well, at least one more."
Now, to be clear, I don't know how more children will come to our family. Still not sure if I will physically carry them the nine months or if maybe someone else will. But sometimes I look at these amazing, beautiful, perfect(ish) little people and think, I want a million! I want to drown in the blessings that being a parent brings. But there is a part of me that speaks up : "If you are drowning in the blessings, you will also be drowning in the challenges." And that is why a woman's uterus gives up and waves the white flag after her childbearing years. Woman was not meant to have children past a certain point. And for each of us, that point is different. I have been heard to say that each woman should know her limit and stop there. But I think the truth may actually lie in knowing your limit and then going a little further -- with faith that the Lord will give you the ability to handle it. Prayer is the ultimate way to find out what He would have you do. And if you follow what you believe to be right, you have no one to answer to but Him.
And so, since most of the time I'm at my limit, I think we need to have at least one more ;)